Height: 5’5
Favorite Diet Food: salad
Favorite Binge Food: Chocolate/crisps
Favorite exercise: Running
Does anyone know?: yes
What makes you slip up?: cravings
What makes you strong: seeing myself skinnier again
When did it start: when I got pregnant
What do you see when you look in the mirrors: chubby
Is it for attention?: no
Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: none
Are you depressed: very
Ever tried to commit suicide: yes
Ever cut yourself: yes
Ever been to a psychologist: yes
Do you drink: now and again not alot
Do you smoke: yes
Do you take drugs: no.
Does your weight affect your mood: alot, especially my hormones
Do you weigh yourself daily: no, monthly
Have you ever fasted: no

Have you ever skipped a meal: yes.

Have you ever thrown food up: no
Have you ever spit food out: yes.

Currently:
[] anorexic
[] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off laxative/diet pills
[] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs
[] fasting/starving myself
People:
[x ] have asked if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have called me fat
[x] have said I’m skinny
[] have said I’m ugly
[x] have said I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] forced me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more

I wish:
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[] I was under 100 lbs 
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty

I love:
[] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[] feeling airy
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] coffee
[] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

Appearance:
[] I am shorter than 5’4
[] I think I’m ugly
[x] I have scars
[] I wish my hair was a different colour
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[x] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x] I have/had braces
[] I wear glasses/contacts
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[x] I have more than 2 piercings
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[] I have freckles

Family:
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents
[] I’ve run away from home
[x] I’ve been kicked out of the house
[] My biological parents are together
[] I have a sibling less than one year old
[x] I want to have kids someday 
[] I’ve had children
[x] I’ve lost a child/baby
[] I can’t have children
Relationships:
[] I’m single
[x] I’m in a relationship
[] I’m engaged
[] I’m married
[] I’ve gone on a blind date
[x] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper
[] I miss someone right now
[] I have a fear of abandonment
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship
[] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship
[] I’ve been ‘the other woman’

Sexuality:
[] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[x] I am a cuddler
[x] I’ve kissed in the rain
[] I’ve hugged a stranger
[x] I have kissed a stranger

Bad Times:
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol
[] I regularly drink
[] I can’t swallow pills
[] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water
[x] I have been diagnosed with depression
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset
[x] I take anti-depressants
[] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS
[] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[x] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve fallen asleep crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[] Weight consumes me
[] I’m at my thinnest
[x] I’m at my biggest
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[] I hate compliments
[x] I want to tell people to “stop lying” when they compliment me
[] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[] I’ve fasted
[] I’ve taken diet pills
[] I’ve used laxatives
[x] I’ve purged
[x] I exercise
[] I exercise so I can eat
[] I work out secretly
[] I work out daily
[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve done:

[] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[] Caffeine pills
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers 
[] Sleeping pills
[x] Anti-depressants
[] Mood stabilizers
[] Anti-psychotics
[] Benzos
[] Ecstacy
[] LSD
[] mushrooms
[] Speed
[] Cocaine
[] Other

Habits:
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I look at thinspo
[] I count calories
[] I’ve had negative intake days
[] I avoid food
[] I hate food
[x] I love food
[] I want to be this way
[] I don’t want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] losing weight is my top priority
[] I am in treatment
[x] I’m doing this for me
[x] I’m doing this for someone

hard to explain. haha

this does mean alot to me, it realy does. Ive always been the one to do something crazy with my hair but as much as i dont want to stop it, I think it’s time I dont do it anymore. Im still going to have a funky style with my hair but not as in your face. I am upset about this but I’m old enough now and need to get out of my younger look. Im getting my hair done soon actually so will upload a photo of my new look soon when its done. Im hoping to look completely different haha! Thankyou again <333 xx means alot